I hear the click,
I see the barrel,
I feel the knife,
The cold steel across my throat,
I sense the feelings,
I see my memories as quick as a flick of the films,
My sight is fading from in front of me,
As my body hits the floor,
My hand flops down to the side,
With a slight sound of a popping,
My body jolts.
Is this what you want?
Is this what you had longed for?
Is this what you had hoped for?
One day you'll miss me,
You'll remember me,
You'll think of me as someone special,
But it will be too late.
Upon the lands of the dead,
What do those tears hold?
What does that pocket hold?
A note of some sort,
But what does it say?
Please pull it out,
I want to know,
Filled with so much torment,
What has brought this from you?
I'm curious as to what produces such sympathy,
To that of which is dead,
Never to exist,
Never to be around once more.
Ah the note,
"To those fools who thought I wouldn't succeed,
"I bid farewell,
"To those who have only caused hurt, pain, and torture...
"I bid farewell,
"Too many a' times I have cried,
"I have missed,
"I have yearned for affection and love,
"I have longed for those around me,
"Those soothing warm arms around me,
"That soft touch along my arm,
"The hand that slowly caresses my cheeks at night,
"I have missed it for far too long,
"Nobody see's the sadness within my eyes,
"Nobody see's the depression I have endured,
"But worst of all...
"Nobody see's the strength I have to have to stay...
"But this strength has faded away,
"While standing upon this balcony,
"I will of fallen 30 feet,
"I do not want to be a hero,
"I just wanted to be recognized,
"I do not want to be someone special,
"I just wanted to be a normal person...
"Was this too much to ask...?"
It holds much,
But speaks too little,
The kindest words be thrown to cement,
Burnt and charred into nothing,
Just as the body will soon decay to nothing.
Can't you tell you are just like me?
Can't you tell you are a normal person within your self?
I hope you can read this letter before your time passes,
Perhaps this was too late...
Perhaps this is goodbye.